it seems amazing that you can sit outside on a stoop and people will just keep walking by

i think i was outside on the roof looking at blimps and planes in the dark

the moon shined through a thin cloud

i went under my blankets and used my laptop

felt very restless and hungry, angry

closing the laptop and lying in the dark feels like surrendering

to something, seems beautiful

i can’t really sleep and have to be up in a few hours

seems like i’m going to die because people say that’s what happens to you

my heartbeat was shaking my bed

shapes of light moved across the walls and ceiling

i want to exercise and go to work now and feel rested

i don’t think i’ve ever shaved at 1am

i thought about how i can only experience life through my body

the last few weekends of the summer i went to my parent’s house

it was a sunday night