i want to be an animal without ambitions, or anticipation.

most of my ambitions and anticipations have led to painful feelings.

i thought this post would be better. it doesn't contain any of the entertaining sentences i think i have been yearning for.

my only way out of this dilemma would be to exist in the future, in a different situation.

my wants are a manifestation of my anticipations. i suspect circular thinking.

painful feelings have kept me awake past when i would like to have gone to bed.

soon i have to fall asleep. i can't wait to fall asleep.