i am not sure exactly happens when i get drunk
i am drunk when it is happening
i feel like some of the worst moments in my life
happened when i was drunk
i picture my eyes moving around a lot
i smile a lot
my face feels warm
i make a lot of compliments
i think about food
i want to hear specific songs that i didn't really care about before
i think i felt some the most positive feelings
when i was drunk
i have felt negative feelings when i have been drunk
i feel that less intense negative feelings over a longer,
sober period of time are worse than drunk negative feelings
it is not that i don't know what happens to me when i am
drunk
i feel like i do not become less capable when i am drunk
i hate myself for this blog post already
i feel that when i am drunk i never hate myself
the fan has been rotating with electrical force for an 8 or 9 hour time period
fragments of my dreams arbitrarily materialized in my thoughts
while i struggled to complete a sentence in something else i was writing
i feel like i would be more productive if i focused all my writing efforts
in one area
sometimes i think i should eliminate blogging, twittering, and journaling.
i should either write poems or stories.
i should only tell stories about moments that are crazy or intense.
at 5pm today i hated the writing i was working.
at 12pm now i don't hate it. i feel that i can progress.
i know what i want at this moment in time.