i'm wearing an XXL t-shirt, flannel pajama pants,
and three pairs of socks.
this is because ascribe to mountain therapy.

'little bitch, little bitch' in my head,
again and again because of how i reacted when i noticed the rat
near my foot.

before that two young girls were kissing on the subway
one of them had a banjo, the other wore her hood up.
'i know the words to every tune you've ever played on your bloody banjo'

i know them because i'm...

i'm a big smiling mountain with a yellow face.
tomorrow i'm sleepy and sad. i'll be in a confused zone of detachment.
what i do doesn't lead to anything.

i'm big and smiling. seconds of time are marking my brain's deterioration.
my face is yellow and i'm big and smiling.