should i formulate the scenes in my novel 'around' or 'based on' ideas and themes?

i was thinking about writing a novel, about needing to f*^&ing work on something, after taking a nap from 4pm - 8pm.

feel like i would rather employ symbolism in my novel than expand ideas or themes concienciously while adapting an autobiographical, fictionalized narrative.

seems like 'being a failure' or 'maintaining a dysfunctional relationship with society' or 'drugs are bad' or 'drugs are good' or 'human kind is doomed' or 'you just gotta go for it' or 'it's best not to expect too much outta life' or 'we're all trapped in our bodies' or 'we're all drugged by consumerism' or 'the government sucks the life out of culture' or 'literature is a house of cards' or 'take care of your body first' or 'take charge of your own destiny' or 'italian boys love pasta' or 'life is beautiful, still, if you neglect what human's have done with it' or 'deep thoughts in solitude in the forest' or 'alone in the forest i am pure' or 'i forgot who i was for a moment while listening to broken social scene' or 'something' could be a central idea in my novel

are there themes to my life, our lives - the lives of people i am in contact with or who live under, within, on top of the same infrastructure as i do - that i have not discovered yet?

seems like it would be best to avoid themes all together. i don't want to skew the reality built within the prose that i feel would ameliorate exactly what i am trying to express.

feel pretty bad about this post, just trying to bury other posts that i also feel bad about.

novel is so bad, maybe i should do something else

Swedish 'skater dudes' commemorate ali's liberation via uploads of some vintage, shitty quality vhs video featuring 'baggy clothes,' 'mongo pushing' and uhm yeah cool... idk


Welcome Out Ali! part 1 from Martin Karlsson on Vimeo.



Welcome Out, Ali part 2 from Martin Karlsson on Vimeo.



Welcome Out, Ali part 3-1996 from Martin Karlsson on Vimeo.

sort of feels like skateboarding reached it's peak when rich kids started getting really good at a young age. parents didn't want them skating in their driveways anymore and so they were sent to woodward in ohio where it was beautiful and relaxing so they could focus on landing insane tricks. they could misbehave and not piss off mom and dad.

is misbehaving worth it if it doesn't piss off someone?
i see now how giving someone negative attention still encourages their potentially shittier behavior. seems like i've come to that conclusion in so many different formats.

tired of it. tired of young people constantly progressing. does this mean i will be left behind via technology and feel alienated by the future's equivalent to the internet?

am i stuck in the past?
am i letting go too soon?

just want to live through skaters on vhs who didn't try too hard. just want to skate with people who see things without preconceptions, psuedo-morals or collective judgment...

just kidding, idk, life sucks...

is skateboarding like writing?
what's easier getting sponsors or blog hits or indie-zine press?
do bloggers deserve a pulitzer category?

been thinking i should write a story where the person hates and is ashamed of their body, has a really bad job, cries a lot, eats bad food, plays video games, has a smelly room... other bad/ lonely things.

might be funny

man, this is a long one huh?
feel like there's no point to posts like this anymore. probably the last time i do this. probably should cut it out with the annoying skateboarding stuff too.

i have created a new blog. you can now be apprised of my hiking activity.

two new poems

Double Shiny posted two poems by me.



Do you guys listen to ETAPOGSITAPR?

garbage strike, 1975

i think there is a band named garbage strike.

people talk about the 1975 garbage strike.

they seem shocked or suprised or like something weird is happening to them, invisibly, while they speak.

did they strike in '75 for the same reason as they did in toroto, last year - municipal mayham?

someone told me guiliani stopped the recycling pick-up for a month.

we lived on a lake and drove our garbage to the dump.

i think you can do that no matter where you live.

that would suck. i feel so dumb.

'the girl' i 'dated' in college (02-06) who is also the subject of my debut, forthcoming novel What Happened to You Today? (fall 2012) has been featured in a ski-resort promotional video re the Swiss Alps. i've also read on blogs that she is due to appear in a video produced by the resort company that claims 35% of the slope real-estate on the Matterhorn.



(we have not spoken since graduation day)

Colin Bassett has published a story I wrote.

Crossfire 'Skate Zine' releases part 2 of a 2006 interview with Ali Boulala.

Teacher photos dorsal finned creature in Newtown Creek.

after opening a link to download a torrent my computer contracted a trojan virus or malware.

while skateboarding i have severely sweat in all the pairs of my jeans that are now in my room.

because i could not fit anymore t-shirts in my laundry bag i took the bag to the laundromat.

waiting for the wash cycle to complete i read an 11 page poem by william wordsworth, sometimes thinking of scenarios completely different than those depicted by the words in the poem and continuing to steadily follow the lines with my eyes.

today i answered questions in a conversation, felt unable to expand the conversation with my answers and felt self-conscious of my voice in that way.

my alarm is set for the same time tomorrow that it was for today despite agreeing to be at work a half-an-hour earlier.

he is the father of seven children by six women in five states, and he's not in a relationship with any of them