blindness

you know when you

hear about something 

bad happening to someone

and you think

'there are a lot of people out there

and somehow bad stuff only

happens to them

well my aunt had a shaggy haired dog

and when it got wet

there was a very distinct smell

that was hard to stand

but she would wait around

motionless

and appear cold

cat body

i was talking with

two people in my living room

it got cold

one person said

i'm going to bed

we kept talking

then i got up for a beer

and the other two got up

and one person offered me some

money for a beer

i said they didn't need to give me money

and gave that person a beer

then i said i'd stay up 

in the living room 

if they weren't tired

then i went into a closet

and put on a sweatshirt

it's windy and raining

and our windows are open

i went to the windows

and looked out

i think my hand was on the rocking chair

i sipped the beer

two voices are in a bedroom

i give up

there's a new smell in the apartment

i haven't done anything different

a sweet smell everywhere

i notice it when i first walk in

then it goes away

i think it's coming from 

the apartment below me

two days ago i was in a friends

apartment for the first time

and it had a strong smell

i like his apartment a lot

his parents live there too

this goes back to my theories

on all things vibrating a little

but i can hear leaves touching 

dark cellphone screens

when i was ten,
i was outside in a wool
flanel -
leaves were brown on the grass
- until after

the sun went down

then, i don't know,
there was a lot of music
on cd players and discmen,
folders at school,
then binders and lockers.

it was just the way it felt
outside.

compassionate fish

i got high

and it's like

i feel everything at once

and be there

i like to think my homeboys

when they gone

that's where they is

jansport

i think my IP
address probably
illustrates
a naked
representation of

copper frogs
and dusty harpoons

i remember
the smell of the person's
house
and kind of want to
hold it

speed stick

right now it's laundry, haircut

but haircut costs money

and hair is just dead molecules

hanging from my body

and the clothes still

work

they just smell different

pequod

a loud noise scatters

people from the finacial 

district

a big thing passes

and water sprays on me

we could be looking

at the same thing

and i could be thinking

'porcelain tub'

new york

moby dick has a calming affect

from minute to minute

hour to hour 

death

i woke up around 9

went back down

woke up again around 12

went back down

it's like 130

i'm going to get chinese food