nike's 'debacle'
this video actually makes me feel more depressed
i really hate this video and the 'nike team' of skaters
just want to clean my body of toxins or something
2.11.2010
forms of to be
in high school i hated 'alien workshop'
always thought their brand was similar to the 'jenco' brand, which is definitely bad.
now it's as if i like 'alien workshop.'
not sure if i changed or 'alien workshop' changed.
seems like i don't like myself, in a vague way, more, now,
which feels less exciting than it used to.
think 'alien workshop' improved.
in high school i hated 'alien workshop'
always thought their brand was similar to the 'jenco' brand, which is definitely bad.
now it's as if i like 'alien workshop.'
not sure if i changed or 'alien workshop' changed.
seems like i don't like myself, in a vague way, more, now,
which feels less exciting than it used to.
think 'alien workshop' improved.
2.07.2010
don't usually do this...
want saints to break up a routine special teams play and juice up their turnover ratio.
'who dat' levees failed in 05,they had that great punt block in 06.
on gchat a sports enthusiast said reggie bush is going to 'open up' verse the colts and then probably suck re his career.
want saints to break up a routine special teams play and juice up their turnover ratio.
'who dat' levees failed in 05,they had that great punt block in 06.
on gchat a sports enthusiast said reggie bush is going to 'open up' verse the colts and then probably suck re his career.
2.05.2010
thinking
the stuff going on in my head is weird
almost expected it, once, when a girlfriend said
'maybe i'm being bitchy because i want to drive you away'
used to think my grandpa acted mean while he was sick
to make it easier for us when he died
i have this uncle
he says strange stuff
think he says strange stuff
to make us all confused or something
he likes to take it to the next level
we kind of egg him on
the stuff going on in my head is weird
almost expected it, once, when a girlfriend said
'maybe i'm being bitchy because i want to drive you away'
used to think my grandpa acted mean while he was sick
to make it easier for us when he died
i have this uncle
he says strange stuff
think he says strange stuff
to make us all confused or something
he likes to take it to the next level
we kind of egg him on
2.04.2010
i'm moving.
looking for someone to replace me in my current apartment,
starting on the 1st of March.
it's a 2 bedroom.
roommate will be staying in one of the rooms.
you will get one room and an office-type room that opens to the living room.
the living room, kitchen and bathroom are shared.
located 2 blocks off the F train at Ft. Hamilton Parkway (Brooklyn NY):
neighborhood: Kensington.
750/month plus gas / electric.
email or comment if interested.
(half view of living room, facing street)
(view from kitchen window, mid-summer. yard not included)
(1/3 view of bedroom)
looking for someone to replace me in my current apartment,
starting on the 1st of March.
it's a 2 bedroom.
roommate will be staying in one of the rooms.
you will get one room and an office-type room that opens to the living room.
the living room, kitchen and bathroom are shared.
located 2 blocks off the F train at Ft. Hamilton Parkway (Brooklyn NY):
neighborhood: Kensington.
750/month plus gas / electric.
email or comment if interested.
(half view of living room, facing street)
(view from kitchen window, mid-summer. yard not included)
(1/3 view of bedroom)
(view of office)
2.01.2010
Possible Excerpt from Novel (only 500 words so far)
Chris was at a party in a house in a college town. He went upstairs in the house and entered a room. People in the room sat on a bed. A girl handed Chris a water pipe packed with marijuana. He handed the pipe to a different girl. Chris looked at the things in the room. He saw a clear plastic jug containing random items, sitting on a cluttered desk next to a computer monitor. He saw some crumpled dollars scrunched between the items. He inserted his hand in the jar and clutched the dollars. He slid the dollars into his jacket pocket. He looked at the floor and turned his body towards the wall and then towards the door. People appeared to be acting normal in his peripherals. A guy with gelled hair and a stomach that extended beyond his waist looked at Chris. Chris felt that no one could have seen what he just did. The guy held a beer in front of his stomach. He remained looking at Chris. Chris thought 'Huh?' The guy said, "Give me the money." Chris walked towards the guy while looking at the floor. Chris pulled the money from his pocket and pushed it into the guy's palm. He walked out of the room while looking at the floor the whole time. He ran down the stairs, through the front door, over the porch, down more stairs, turned left on the side walk and continued until he saw a Denny's. Chris heard a male voice yell, "Get him," when he made the left on the sidewalk. Chris entered the Denny's and inserted his checking card into an ATM machine. The machine indicated insufficient funds. He called a friend. He met his friend's on the main street of the town. They waited to find out where another party was. No one had money for more beer. Having no money they entered a club. The music in the club was loud. From the way the club appeared inside it seemed like the beers would be over priced.
Chris was at a party in a house in a college town. He went upstairs in the house and entered a room. People in the room sat on a bed. A girl handed Chris a water pipe packed with marijuana. He handed the pipe to a different girl. Chris looked at the things in the room. He saw a clear plastic jug containing random items, sitting on a cluttered desk next to a computer monitor. He saw some crumpled dollars scrunched between the items. He inserted his hand in the jar and clutched the dollars. He slid the dollars into his jacket pocket. He looked at the floor and turned his body towards the wall and then towards the door. People appeared to be acting normal in his peripherals. A guy with gelled hair and a stomach that extended beyond his waist looked at Chris. Chris felt that no one could have seen what he just did. The guy held a beer in front of his stomach. He remained looking at Chris. Chris thought 'Huh?' The guy said, "Give me the money." Chris walked towards the guy while looking at the floor. Chris pulled the money from his pocket and pushed it into the guy's palm. He walked out of the room while looking at the floor the whole time. He ran down the stairs, through the front door, over the porch, down more stairs, turned left on the side walk and continued until he saw a Denny's. Chris heard a male voice yell, "Get him," when he made the left on the sidewalk. Chris entered the Denny's and inserted his checking card into an ATM machine. The machine indicated insufficient funds. He called a friend. He met his friend's on the main street of the town. They waited to find out where another party was. No one had money for more beer. Having no money they entered a club. The music in the club was loud. From the way the club appeared inside it seemed like the beers would be over priced.
1.26.2010
for me to call your name again
i'm sure i felt sad and then got accustomed to feeling sad
but maybe tomorrow i'll wake feeling differently
do i fit well into things, like shirts and shoes?
idk, social situations?
probably won't feel differently tomorrow
maybe experience a rogue feeling
existentially
might feel like i am waking
while i am awake
i'm sure i felt sad and then got accustomed to feeling sad
but maybe tomorrow i'll wake feeling differently
do i fit well into things, like shirts and shoes?
idk, social situations?
probably won't feel differently tomorrow
maybe experience a rogue feeling
existentially
might feel like i am waking
while i am awake
1.22.2010
seems like people can easily get the things they want
i came to this conclusion after looking at young adults looking after their children on the subway
and going to the rumpus anniversary party
though i have done a bad job managing time this weekend
this mid-weekend post seems like a good idea
going to play more video games now
my plan is to play video games, sporadically pause said games and read something from books i set aside at a previous time and place next to me on the couch
trying too hard to be productive but i am not sure what i want to concentrate on in the coming months
another short story?
a book of poems?
a 'fucking' novel?
1.18.2010
1.16.2010
i want to just post videos on my blog. feels bad as i attempt to formulate complete sentences. feels like they will never be what i want them to be. seems easier to just do what i am told to do or produce an interpretation of my estimation of what everyone else produces. sort of want to blog about Haiti and sort of want to blog about new york city water supply and sewage system. last week i thought i was going to blog about the cherskogo mountain range in Siberia. i have a lot of questions. the answers won't change anything. is there a point?
something different:
each time i get my hair cut at a barbershop i feel worse looking in the mirror than the time before. had a barber in the past that turned my chair, didn't have to look at myself for ten minutes. this time i had interesting thoughts while i was trying to not look at myself. a guy was sitting behind the barber and i talking to himself loudly, moaning too. the barbershop was quiet. thought about a coincidental situation. thought about making choices to impede random and misguided events. what's a satisfying outlook on chaos and cognitive action or something? read zachary's post sometime after getting my hair cut and liked it, felt a little better. feels like i will get screwed by some unforeseeable force if i am not more than just honest and progressive-thinking.
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